Life is a rollercoaster.

Life is just one big rollercoaster ride! One second you feel on top of the world,another you feel like you're plummeting down...heading below to shake the devil's hand, the next you feel like you're going backwards, reliving things from childhood.All of these things are life and, in their own way, are great experiences.
I went back to the doctor Thursday and he checked my blood sugar log book. I actually thought that the numbers were fine and was proud of my numbers. My fasting numbers have been around the 95 area in the mornings and my diet numbers have been pretty good, but apparently not good enough. You'd think that numbers like 98,99,or 97 would be pretty acceptable when you're aiming for 95, but I guess when they said 95 or below, they really meant low 90's. And so, yet again my dosage was increased, now to 1 1/2 Glyburide before bed and 1/2 in the mornings and the next step will be insulin. I thought about this for a while yesterday. I'm now 35 weeks pregnant, when I go back to the doctor I will be 36 weeks pregnant;considering I have diabetes, I'm more likely to go into labor before I reach 40 weeks. So by the time we get this diabetes/blood sugars under control, I will more than likely be going into labor. i do realize that the baby can get bigger if they aren't controlled and complications can arise, but from the looks of my NST's (non stress test) and weekly ultrasounds....my baby is doing just fine. I just find it a bit funny that by the time we get my sugars regulated, it will be time to have the baby.
This time I don't feel any guilt about the dosage increase, my meal sugars are under control, if you look at my sugar logbook you can see the high numbers are out of my control, so now I'm just mad at my body. It's one of those times where you say "just cooperate already!".
Speaking of my body not cooperating, I'm also sick! I think it's the pollen that's making my throat sore. I drive a red car,candy apple red, but at the moment, it's green with pollen! Pollen usually doesn't affect me at all,but I guess when you're pregnant, alot of things that didn't affect you before, affect you now. And, to top off the sore throat and headaches, NinjaMan isn't here to take care of me. The one time in my pregnancy that I get sick, his work required him to travel 8 hours away and be gone for a weekend...figures. So, it's just me and NinjaKitty, just like last year about this time when NinjaMan was overseas. The bright side here is that I got use to being alone so being alone for a weekend is easy, but man is it boring! I'm a BIG movie watcher, but last year I got so bored with watching movies and tv. I watch movies by myself when NinjaMan is home,but it's just not the same, he's always in the same room so I never feel alone. But I guess it's the fact that I don't hear him fussing at his video games in the background that makes me feel so alone, the fact that he isn't right here for me to just walk over and give him a hug. At least I have my NinjaKitty, it's nice to be followed around the house and have him waiting right outside my door when I'm going to sleep. --He sheds really bad so we don't let him in our room or lay on the beds, also we like to sleep with the doors closed and he always wakes us up to go out.But it's nice to have him snuggle with me when I'm at the computer, it's like he knows when I want company and he's always here to purr in my lap. :)
Back to the original subject, I am sick and I do NOT want to go out today, but bills need to be paid and if I wait till Monday, they'll be late. :( And so I must put on a brave, but impatient face and run these errands as fast as possible. So lookout world, there's an impatient,sick, pregnant woman on the loose!!